Over the past two years, I’ve stepped back from writing about art. This pull-back was initiated by some practical and obvious contextual factors. But it was good timing, as certain aspects of art criticism, including this tricky relationship with authority, had become very problematic for me. When you write about art for a living, the pace of the work exceeds your capacity to spend adequate time and energy with the works being written about. This creates a dynamic wherein the authoritative voice of the writer by necessity gains a self-propelling momentum. You have to work so fast and produce so many words that it becomes impossible to know if you actually mean what you’re writing. When a writer’s medium is ostensibly autonomous thought and feeling, this is a big problem. The drive to produce the aura of authority and draw attention to one’s voice has serious consequences, both personally and in a wider social sense. On the level of the individual, this situation sets multiple complexes in motion, from a basic separation from one’s own experience, to a constant self-measuring against dubious standards of authority. Politically speaking, this situation is structurally related to how we produce and consume media — click-bait, fake news… — and the accompanying political dangers. Performing authority for the sake of attention is dangerous whether it’s happening at Fox News, or in an art magazine. I don’t want to be too pious, or to fetishize the idea of authentic experience. All speaking and writing is performative, and there is beauty and importance to that. We need to retain and exercise the right to play with voice. And even to really lean into pretension, if it takes us somewhere past academic mannerism, and if it’s fun. There are some great critics who consciously play the role, to the extent that it becomes a type of gorgeous camp theatre. That’s something I love, when it’s carried off well. At this point, I’m chasing a type of writing that might actually be capable of reflecting encounters with art, including the performative aspects of those encounters. This might seem like a basic goal, but it’s much more easily said than done. And it has an important socio- political dimension, in the sense that actual experience is opposed to dissociation, and dissociated relationships to art probably reflect the conditions of a dissociated society.