I just finished a long, nerdy fan essay about Mariah Carey and – surprise, surprise – the ways that she exists outside of linear time. She opens her memoir by declaring “I refuse to acknowledge time,” which is just such an outlandish diva statement. That was my starting point, and I tried to really think about the ways that her voice, her career trajectory, her image, her hair, her approach to songwriting, and her general vibe have proposed alternatives to the stronghold of standardized, linear time. In some ways, the topic might be a departure from other things that I’ve written in recent years, because I’ve been thinking a lot about secretive realms like queer silence, and gossip, and hidden ruins, and the aesthetics of indirection – and then Mariah is this super glossy, sparkly, hyper-visible pop star. The vastness of the archive certainly made it a different kind of writing process; she’s had such a long, busy, well-documented, public-facing career, so I didn’t have the feeling that I sometimes have when I’m looking at the fragile, fragmentary edges of the historical record and wondering about the politics of exclusion and illegibility. At the same time, though, the Mariah topic is perhaps in line with other things I’ve written where there is a desire to be very serious about something that many would dismiss as frivolous or apolitical or otherwise just not worth taking seriously.